Living a hard life and moving from country to country, but also owing to the nature of my work, I have seen some pretty ugly stuff, believe me. It helps my writing, though, I hate to admit...

When I started writing the novel, I had no misconceptions about either its extent or its context. I knew exactly how the plot was going to evolve, what the characters were all ... about, and which the message I was trying to get across was. I’ve made an effort to give birth to a literary realm that combines philosophy, psychology, past wisdom, and surreal experiences, as those have been carved on our collective unconscious, from the beginning of eras till the present moment, placing our current reality to intermingle with the one artificially created by drugs and lunacy. And although the characters’ “eccentricity” may sometimes elude today’s verbal standards, I think that this is precisely what brings different, more vibrant colors to the narration.

A Faustian tragedy in its essence, it doesn’t mean that the whole material is a pro argument on nihilism and negativism; of course not. It just means that each crime has, or should have, its punishment, and maybe this is even more optimistic than the truth. For the characters in the novel, pain is the force putting the world in motion. Having lived the lives they had to go through, some may find such evolution justified; others not. Still, this is not the point. You should just be able to enter the spectrum of their experiences and feel with them, even identify with them on times. Understand that, through these wasted years, many things should have been said and done; many things shouldn’t have happened at all. In an obvious reference to Marcel Proust, Albert Camus once said that the lost time is regained only by the rich; and I think you precisely get my point here. Because the magnitude of the drama lies in the inevitable, in the lack of free choice and what seems to be predestined all along. As for where reality ends and fiction begins, it’s up to the reader to decide. And yet, the sullen fact is that many of the unfolding events are not simply figments of a sick imagination.

A great man once said that the “righteous” will not permit their sleep to be disturbed. They either deny or take lightly the atrocities being committed on an everyday basis, or consider them too distant a dimension to touch them and their families, even if they vigorously support—or think they support—the victims of such crimes. My effort is to break the illusion, shatter the mask of pretended sympathy, and try to force the violent reality check our times demand. Almost all the facts presented in the book as true are nothing else than what they claim to be, and this must be the hardest part - that this mortal reality of ours is the place where the worst nightmares come to life.

If you can steal a minute or two, visit my site, and also watch the video trailers- I am posting them here, as well as in YouTube's search engine. All is conceived and constructed entirely by me. The novel is called "A Diary of Wasted Years", and you can find the trailers by typing in the same title.

My gratitude to Amethystium for lending me one of their amazing pieces of music to use as background on my site. Extra thanks, guys!

Initially, the plan was to have a photo shoot to complement it - me and some female model in a dark background, that is. The model was supposed to represent the embodiment of lust and eternal sin, the supreme power of the feminine, and the transcendence to the realm of the surreal, all linked to the novel's plot. Kind of complicated, right? I know! Still, I didn't have time to either find the right model for the concept or the appropriate photographer who could convey the essence of the novel as he should. Hopefully, I'll be able to do it at some point and upload some real-life photographs, both on the site and the album.

Anyway, check it out, maybe post a comment, and let me know what you think.